Archive for November, 2009

Awake

Saturday, November 28th, 2009

Rite now in my life here in this world there are Many people around me dyeing, getting very sick, run down or Just want to quit. And I feel at times I am just Dead and I get tired of the war that I wage on a daily basis over my soul and life. As I fall and lose in this battle all I see is Darkness and I feel cold and like I am also slipping from god.  I feel I am just laying there in gods arms barley holding on and he does something for me that makes it all the bad thoughts and fears go away. He says Jason I love you and breathes into me again.  Now I am reminded what I believe inside and who I am in Christ.  I am now reawakened and alive.  It is my time and I am going to use this time I was given. I am going to stand my ground and never back down. This is my life and I am only given one and I am never gonna sell my soul for the Pedy thing of this life. Dear god forever hold this heart that I give to you and while I am in your arms breathe in me Again. Thank you lord for I am Awake and Alive and devoted to you.   Thank You!

GO

Monday, November 16th, 2009

I find myself thinking a lot about what to do for god and how many different ways I can do things for him. I can come up with a lot and most of them would help the kingdom of god.. Thin I remember at the last moment before I decide to set it into motion to actually go to god and ask what he wants me to do.  Wow what a thought…to ask the person you are trying to do something for! Do you know anyone who will do something for you personally without asking you first? After their done you wish they would have only asked first. But with god he has already given us an answer he gave us an answer before we were even born to ask the question.[1] God said in Mark 12:30 And you shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength.’ This is the first commandment. So god wants me. He wants all of me. God has really been laying that on my heart. Do I need to go somewhere or do something before I can give all of myself to him. The answer is No.  If you are anything like me you listen to that annoying voice in my head that give me reasons to not Just Go[2] way too much.  Go and give god one day to start and think on him and his kingdom work all day even while at work or play. Go and think on god the whole day and pray without ceasing[3].  For me that is really hard and a lot easier to say it than to do it. I am really starting to see the whole Romans 7 thing[4].  Lucky for me my god encourages me to stand back up off my face and continue with my walk.[5] So at both ends of the day and everywhere in-between I need to hear god saying ” I want You ” By giving yourself to him may take your money, time, possessions, or everything.  But when you compare what I want to god’s blessings for the rest of eternity.  I will take god every time. Now .. Just to live that way…..


[1] Psa 139:1-18 O LORD, thou hast searched me, and known [me]. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted [with] all my ways. For [there is] not a word in my tongue, [but], lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether. Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me. [Such] knowledge [is] too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot [attain] unto it. Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou [art] there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou [art there]. [If] I take the wings of the morning, [and] dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light [are] both alike [to thee]. For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully [and] wonderfully made: marvellous [are] thy works; and [that] my soul knoweth right well. My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, [and] curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all [my members] were written, [which] in continuance were fashioned, when [as yet there was] none of them. How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.

[2] Luk 9:23 And he said to [them] all, If any [man] will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily,and follow me.

[3] 1Ti 2:8 I will therefore that men pray everywhere, lifting up holy hands, without wrath and doubting.

1Th 5:17 Pray without ceasing.

[4] Romans 7: 14-25 For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am carnal, sold under sin. For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that [it is] good. But now, [it is] no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but [how] to perform what is good I do not find. For the good that I will [to do], I do not do; but the evil I will not [to do], that I practice. Now if I do what I will not [to do], it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God–through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.

[5] Proverbs 24:16  For a righteous [man] may fall seven times And rise again, But the wicked shall fall by calamity.