Did you ever go to a camp during summer or spend time away from home and did you ever get homesick because you were away from loved ones and your real home. Well I’ve been homesick multiple times in my past for different reasons. But I got that feeling of being homesick again the other day but this time I am in my apartment and have not been any ware to warrant these feelings. This time is different because I cried. Not that I never cried from the same feeling when I was younger but as I said this time was different. This time I am homesick for my Real home. My perfect home beyond the blue in heaven. I may have never been there but that doesn’t change the fact that I am still longing to go and see my God and my new home. Plus there are so many saints that have gone before me that I want to talk to and finally see or see again. Yet the feelings are mixed because although heaven is so perfect I am not, I know that I am still forgiven. Recently in my life I keep feeling that although I keep trying to walk with him I keep falling on my face. I feel that I cannot even walk or crawl on my knees without failing miserably. Then I hear the devil say to me ” How many times do you think he will forgive you for the same thing.. You can’t really be sorry for you sins if you keep doing it.” In my worldly knowledge I have issues believing that an all powerful god can keep forgiving me for the same thing over and over. But luckily Gods ways are higher than my ways and Gods grace and love have covered all my sins now and forever no matter how many times I fail and if I am willing to ask he will even forget all about my sin Forever. After this struggle the holy spirit reminds me of Heaven and no matter how bloody I am from falling and failing if I persevere it will we worth it all to just see my saviors face.. As I type this I cry again. Can you imagine and picture finally coming face to face with God and falling to my face before him this time for a good reason to hopefully hear ” Well done good and faithful servant!” Too look up and see a smile. That will make it worth it. No matter how bad stuff can get to see my saviors face will make it worth it. Oh to be there in heaven finally home where I belong. I hope this feeling of being homesick never goes away till I get there.. Oops till we get there..